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life motto: part one

life motto: part one

I have been a fan of Meghan Trainor since there was a Meghan Trainor to be a fan of. That sentence is terrible. Let's just go with it. 

Her songs are just so stinkin' catchy. She never learned to cook, but she can write a hook. Y'all. She really can. If she was you, she'd want to be her, too. Her name is "no." She thinks every inch of you is perfect, from the bottom to the top.

The girl just oozes all the confidence. 

To cover all my bases, here's the thing: I know larger than life confidence can often be masking deep, real insecurities. I'm sure that Meghan has issues she deals with and hurts she works through like every other human because she's breathing just like you and me. I'm not discounting her humanness.

I'm saying she really rocks the confidence. (At the very least, she appears to.) 

And I'm saying I'm really jealous.

A couple of years ago, I was at a group retreat and we did this activity where every person in the group prayed over every person in the group. It was awesome and it took forever. A friend (who at that point I hadn't known for very long) got to me and in his prayer for me, he prayed for confidence. 

I was a little miffed.  

Inwardly. Silently, of course. I didn't have the confidence (ironically) to voice my frustration, but I was offended...honestly...a little. How dare he? He's not supposed to know that I need that!  

He was right, of course. So right. So soon. I desperately needed some confidence, not to perform on a stage, but to live out the love of Christ instead of quietly keeping it for myself. Instead of boxing myself in. Instead of constantly biting my tongue (though sometimes the tongue-biting is best for everyone). 

Thankfully, my confidence has grown, but I'm no Meghan--but why shouldn't I be? I have every reason to walk with just as much confidence as she does. And so was born the first half of Hannah's Life Motto:

I want to live my life with the love of Jesus and the confidence of Meghan Trainor.

 "Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God." Ephesians 5:1-2

"Therefore as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience." Colossians 3:12 

 "As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:35

"The result of righteousness will be peace; and the effect of righteousness will be quiet confidence forever." Isaiah 32:17

When I remember that I'm loved and chosen and freed and forgiven and pursued by God, when I remember that He delights in me, there's nothing to fear. There's no reason to shrink back. When He is for us, who can be against us? When I cling confidently to that, biting my tongue is not an option. People are gonna hear about it.  

Meghan is a fun, tangible reference point for me of how confidence looks like being out in the world instead of on the couch watching Netflix, but ultimately my deepest want is to be more and more like Jesus--not mimic a pop star. This little half of my motto helps me chase after imitating Christ. When I want to choose fear or timidity or tongue-biting, I say no. 

I'm living my life with the love of Jesus and the confidence of Meghan Trainor.  

Who do you know or watch who oozes all the confidence?
What helps you say no to fear? 

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